End of April

I am so lonely today~

Haha~

Always staying home alone..

Not going out also..

Hmm~

This morning I woke up very early la~

I want to have a hair cut one..

But dunno why, Seems like all Saloon also full

=3=

No people wanna do my business

Haha~

I want to cut coconut hair la~

:D

Cute ma~

Lol..

My hair style now very hard to take care..

Hope my hair can grown faster and longer..

I have to blow my hair everytime before I went out..

If not? My hair will looks like a mop..=.=

Haiya~

Really regret to cut my hair..D:

But just one month time only leh..

I cut my hair on 18th March..

Then now only April..

GG~

Then I go and find my Mummy la~

I did work as a part-timer there before la~xD

Then I go there chat with those workers there~

And wait my mum off la~

Then we walking home together~

xD

Then after home,

They all have their date..

T^T

I am alone again..=3=

nyer..

What should I eat for my dinner har?

...

Cup Noodles again..=3=

GG..

Well~~

Today~

It's the last day for April~

:D

yay

I should make a conclusion for this month~

April

A very stressful month~

I having my final exam in the begining of the month...

And we emo for my complicated relationship? =3=

But finally it did end already..

:)

Working~

:)

Actually working is okay one..

But there's some accident during my work make me very upset..

Haha..

But when the work is end..

I meet someone..

:)

This people very geng one..

I meet him many times already before that..

But he cannot recognize me..

Haha..

Then finally I know how to smile jor lo..

Thank Kiu ha..:p

April..

Hmm..

A month which is not that bad compare with last month la~

Because my guardian did step into my life and protect me..

Protect my smile..

Haha..

Next month is my MONTH!!

Oh yeah!

My birthday..xD

Hope it's a good begining of my new life chapter..

Study hard, study smart..

Working hard, working smart..

Appreciate what I have now..

Reject gossip..=.=

9th of May is time for my last semester..

Hope everything go smooth..

And I didn't step on your tail, please behave..

Don't kacau me la..

I just wan a peaceful life..

I don't want to be famous,

I don't want to be the best,

I didn't talk about yours bad..

=.=

Just stay away from me la..

Thank you for your co-operation..

I am shy

Oh yeah!

Finally my break time start~

:D

Last night was my last day working for my part time job~

Hmm...

When my sem break start,

I feel like I very busy leh..=3=

Busy working and emo?

haha..xD

But now no more emo..:D

I have my guardian to cheer me up..xD

Hiak hiak~

Working at PC fair and running road show for two different company..xD

Very happy when I working with you guys..

But hor...

Hope the one who fetch me can be on time la..=3=

Everyday also have to wait for 35mins ++

GG..

And those female customers hor..

Yerr!!!

T^T

very Horrible, Terrible, Vegetable and Cucumber la..><''

Will scold people geh..

And like I want kao their boy like that..

Talking rude to me..

=.=

Now,

I wanna diet...

Haha..

People who know me will said: Har?? again ar? =.= u will success geh meh?

Haha..

Cz I always mean it but never been success..xD

Ohohohoho~

Today~

So relax~

I keep on watch a Taiwan drama--Next Stop, Happiness

:)

Very Very touching drama

Keep on cry cry cry while I watching it..

haha..xD

I long time didn't when for movie le..

=3=

Can someone bring me out?

xD

Next week I hanging out with my babes la..xD

wait for so long jor~xD

Hope all things will going smooth la~:D

hehe~

I want shopping and talk with my jie muis~

Hmm..

Looking forward for my birthday la~:D

today is 29th April..

Still have one month time..

Ngam Ngam..xD

I really hope my dream will come true on this year...

Cz I wait for 20 years jor..

haha..xD

My dream~~

My dream...xDDD

================================

It's Not easy to find someone who can really talk with

It's Not easy to find someone who can understand you

Appreciate people around you..

:D

Who cares?

An insomnia night again

Freaking tired for now..:(

Too much of things going through my brain..

Sometime, I felt like I am a life jacket for you,

I did protect you and care you, but you didn't care,

Because you know that I will always be there;

Sometime, I felt like I am a life buoy for you,

You grab me when you need me,

Abandon me when you have the others.

I know you are the wrong person for me.

Everyone wasn't perfect as you said.

Out looking really not that important..

When people goes old, their beauty will fade..

And..

If the one with you is very sexy and pretty,

What if She getting fatter?

Are you going to abandon her?

And what if there's a better choices, which is more hot and sexy and pretty than the girl you have,

What will you going to do?

Changing new target?

Have a better choice then just go for it?

I hope you won't be this kind of person..

I hope you can be okay..

I know I am nothing to you..

And you also know that I am leaving soon?

400++ days..

It's not easy to make it...

The way is hard to stay..

Many blood and tears I leave..

Today, when I stop by here and turn back..

It's complicated and touching..

We work so hard to maintain this relationship/friendship..

It's really not easy for us to walk until today..

You are my friend,

I really didn't think about those couple things on you again..

I will find my real man..

A man who really love and care me,

Who can really protect me..

Who is mature..

I hope you can stay strong...

You still have your family and friends..

Two niu niu and one bear bear..

Find a girl who can really take care of your family,

Find a girl who really care about you,

Find a girl that mature,

Find a girl who really love you,

Find a girl who is not a clubber..:)

Best wishes from me to you..

Wish you will be success in your life..

Wish you will get your happiness..

Wish you will become mature..

28/4/2011

By: Eris Chew Mun

友达以上，恋人未满

恋爱，是每个人都渴望得到的东西

但是又却容易让人受伤

有些人因为之前受过伤，他们会因为这样而去伤害下一个

这种行为，真的是幼稚至极

而且，这些也是人生必经的阶段

因为怕受伤害而去伤害别人

拜托

成熟点好吗？

这些都是借口

不懂得珍惜？

不会怎样做？

这些都是给自己的借口

是给自己的保护

把责任推到别人的身上

我，累了

友达以上，恋人未满的关系

是会让人甜蜜，但是心烦的时间往往比较长

这些复杂关系，真的累了

虽然我曾经多次提出说自己要退出，但是我做不到

但是，现在的我在想些什么？

你又真的知道吗？

因为你，我不开心了好久；

请你不要忘记，我对你的好

请你不要忘记，我曾经对你爱

请你不要忘记，我跟你一起的开心时刻

请你不要忘记，你还有我这个被你抛弃的女生

请你不要忘记，你也是有成功的时候

请你不要忘记，你还有你的家人

请你不要忘记，你不是个坏人

对于恋爱，要时常猜测对方的心思

对于恋爱，要时常顾忌对方是否爱你

对于恋爱，要时常留意身边的变化

人的思想，变换莫测

人的心，更是奇妙

人性，恐怖

但是也有善良的部分

往往有很多自私自利的人在我们的生活中出现

真正待你好的又有几个？

做人难啊……

希望自己也能找到一个真的适合我的男生，嫁人算了~

哈哈~

Thank Q :)

I just back from work..:D

Recently I really felt tired about relationship le..

Please don't chase me la..

I already set someone as my target

=.=

But it's really make me feel annoyed sometime..

Not for you guys..

But it's for me..

Lolz..

I keep on text or find him...

I really scared..

I never be success in my past relationship..

And indeed..

It did mess up my life..

The worst one is get abandon by those who really didn't appreciate you

BUT what to do?

It's the way we choose..

Haha..

Sometime..I will be emo again..

But now,

Someone did really cheer me up..

Someone did make me smile..

Lolz..

I just want to say..

Thank you for step into my life..

:)

New Style Yo~

Lolz...

I did edit my blog layout again..

Clean out some of my memories...And it's time for me to face the truth..

:)

Haha..

My long lost smile is back?

hmmm...

Thanks Mr.C for text with me la..

After talk with you I really felt much more better..

Haha..

You really a good friend to be with..

:)

滴答滴答

时间不会因为一个人而停止流动

时间可以改变万物

时间，滴滴答答地走

随着时间的飘逝，我-变了

刚才很不开心的我，读了我在2009年写的部落格

当时的年少无知

让我发觉到我真的很白痴，很幼稚

但是那一段时间真的很开心

我十八岁的那年，经历了很多风风雨雨

到最终我遇上了一个让我彻底成熟的人--许俊杰

现在的思想真的跟以前比起，天渊之别

十八岁，内心的空虚

所以一直想找个人来爱

但是却一直经历失败

网上恋情，真的很无知

当然自己也有哭的时候

十八岁，在网上寻找帅哥交往

刚才我看见我以前的生活

真的很够力白痴……

哈哈

把自己的照片跟对方的照片合起来

还称呼对方老公之类的

很Geli咯=.=

那一年，我没有心读书，至少不会给自己现在的压力。

考试，过了就算！

还时常去走街，去跟网友见面，时常跟陌生人讲电话跟信息

在面子书上认识的人都让我充实自己

让自己开心

当自己被另外一些男子追求，自己就把人给甩了

接受新的恋情……

又或者自己被甩

So what?

找过一个新的啦~~

很够力衰咯~

但是都是在网上的人啦~

他们会打电话给我，哄我开心~

之中还有一个当上歌星了叻！

Felix啦~

那时他还打电话唱歌给我听~

人也很帅气~哈哈

但是因为他要去英国留学，所以没啦~

哈哈……

认识了许俊杰

你让我知道我的缭乱生活是时候结束了

是时候活得有作息一些……

我真的成熟了

长大了……

怎样选择自己的另一半，我不会再乱来……

适当的事情我会做了。

时间，改变了无知的我变成一个成熟思想的人

学会了体谅。

但是接受，我还得学着呢！

现在的我，一直感叹着为什么你们对我的不公平可以这样公道？=.=

好像我欠了你们似的……

把我说得一文不值

一直贬低我……

我没有做的事情，就是没有

有做我会认……

认识我的人，你们知道我的个性

不认识我而贬低我的人，滚远！

要先说人，看好自己再说

自己做过什么，自己知道……

然而……

人吖……

唉……

成熟点吧……

可能误会又产生了？

我真的不想再想了

为了一个人，放弃的东西未免太多了吧？

Finish Exam

Now my mood is damn BAD

I can't believe that what the stupid paper asking those stupid questions!

It's totally different with the past years paper!

My life is tatally GG now!

After end my exam,

I did consider on my own problem again

I back to emo status

I totally cannot cheer up after I end my exam

Those problems which cannot be solve in this whole year!

Many peoples did told me I am terrible and freaking annoyed.

Yea, I did admit it again!

What for?

Yea...I am asking myselve!

What for?

The answer for you is totally very obvious for you already...

People just want to be a normal friend for you but not in a relationship again!

You know that!

But what for???!!!!

I really hate myself on doing such of stupid thing again then people scold me again!

Know what he like nor dislike but still keep on practicing the same false!

You guys totally dunno how I feel!!!

REALLY

What I want?

What I face?

I really upset, helpless!!!

I try to be strong!

But how??!

From my past until now,

I totally helpless.............

Like to remain silence...

Sigh..

Friends...

I know you want me to be happy...

But I really can't

What to do if you was me?

*Abandon

*Betrayed

*Failed

It's not that easy than you talk

It's not easy as what you think

It's not that easy, It's complicated

Time...

May be until the time I death, it's the formation to solve it

===============================

Last Paper- Sat

Today is the last paper for my final

Hope I can get good result for it

Last night, finally I can sleep

Insomnia for so long

But my brain did keep on appear those bad memories too

Sigh

I think I will keep on emo if I still care it or what?

The things they did to me...

Yea, I did did wrong..

I admit it..

But what about you?

You did did wrong as well...

But I don't like you guys..

I have no chance to fight back..

I already tired and get used to it..

I also dislike people keep on giving comment on me..

Not just both of you...

The one who win is both of you..

Be a loser like me, better keep on silent and accept what you both did to me...

Keep on lower down my standard..

I am just like a piece of shit I think...

How you guys treat me huh?

Geez...

Really speechless and disappointed!

==============================================

My 100th post

Today is the time for my 100th post

Yes, Absolutely, I am upset again

I very very emo and unhappy

Because of the unmature people keep on making something to annoyed me

Misunderstanding me.

No matter friendship nor relationship, It's also important for me

Why do you guys keep on talking and humilating each other?

And finally, shoot to me.

What did I do?

It's really unfair to me...

I did admit what I did wrong last time, but this time you say that I am terrible again..

For the same issue...

And for the other side...

The one who have a really great imagination, please behave yourself..

You did keep on humilating me and him...It's really enough already

What you wanna said, point to me is really enough..

Although all people are keep on shooting to each other,

Just want to protect our ownself..

But I already did my works..

I already don't want to read on yours post..

Already don't want to care...

But why still keep on doing like this?

I am not acting..

I didn't mean to talk about anyone bad's behind..

And I won't humilate someone in the public..

I didn't betray each of you..

I trust...But what I get? It's the real answer for me?

How many tears I left on this whole night?

I having my life...

I having my exam tomorrow afternoon..

And I did messed up my life now..

Dear yi,

I really appreciate the night with you..

You really cheering me with your supportive..

Because you really know what happened to me and also my feeling..

By the way you scolding me, I also appreciate it..

Really..

Thank you...

And for myself..

I really hate people misunderstanding me...

And if I did something, I will admit it..

If not, please...Don't said I did something I didn't did..

I am having my life..

I will not on my FB again..

I swear...

It's already enough for me..

I don't want I cry again because of this kind of issue again..

You guys never know how hurt am I..

I really hurt...

Last night I have a very witch thinking..

I was thinking to end my life...

haha..

Like last time..Those teenagers who did as well..

Post on FB...

saying that Daddy Mummy, I LOVE you..

Sorry to be your daughter..

But It's not right..

Those people who getting abandon,

People won't think that you very pity..

Won't give you a tissue paper and cheer you up..

They will just looking down to you..

Even you get into an accident..

They will also have no feeling at all..

And won't care how much you get injured..

If you death, it's good for them..

And if you said I betrayed you..

I will get my punishment in the future?

I think you are the one who should face it..

Cz u already did..

You have no much friends already based on what you did in your life

Well...It's my blog here...

You are welcome to said what you want and humilate me again in your FB nor blog...

People will know the truth.

You no need to lie to yourself and living in your cyber and fantasy world.

I not dunno how to fight..

I just don't want to fight back..

People, please be mature a bit.

But it's useless already..

cuz you guys never care about who really treat you with heart.

没有你的日子

今天很迟才能爬起来

又做噩梦啦~

星期六就要考试了，我竟然还可以悠悠哉哉地上网写网志……

无言吖~

最近又迷上了写网志的习惯

以前我总是爱把自己的生活点滴都写到网志上来

但是随着生活的改变，渐渐忘了这里的世界

写网志，往往都是我不开心的时候才来发表

发出我内心世界的想法，说出没有人可以聆听的心声

最近我的心情郁闷

心理不平衡

真的很奇怪吖~

看到很多东西，心里面知道某些事情

但是还是在自欺欺人

到底何时我才能够大大咧咧地站出来，面对这一切残酷的事实？

唉…………

不比别人聪明伶俐，不比别人奥娜多姿，也没有玲珑凹凸的身材……

这就是失败的关键吗？

一颗对你好的心

一个不想离去的心

很烦吖……

6th of April

Today is my Final exam

My first paper, Malaysia Cultural and Practice

I have already put many afforts in this subject

Keep on study and study

Hope I can get a good result on this paper

Well~

Today HJ^2 is going back to JB already

I did try my best to stay with him today!

Hahas...

Taking bus and spending some times with him after exam

I am so sorry that i get jealous easily

Actually there is nothing..

As I know..I will try my best to make myself better

I have another paper on this Sat

SHIT

The federal constitution in Malaysia made me crazy

So hard to understand and so complicated to amend a law

haha..And the system is damn hard to memorize it..

Today raining leh..

So shit that I didn't bring umbrella to college, is not I can walk under a umbrella with you one..

waste already..T^T

HJ^2, next time I will bring umbrella all the time

No worries..

Haha..

Why do I keep on repeating the things about you?

Because..

You are a part of my life..

I glad that I have my day with your apperance..

Hope everythings will going to be okay soon..

And I would like to write my blog to fullfill myself..

Unbalancing of my physical status now..

=.=''

Totally Insane

Back to English mode

Tomorrow is my first final paper- Malaysia Culture

God Bless me

And also HJ^2, All the best for your paper tomorrow as well

Recently there are many things come into my mind

No matter it's good or bad

Things keep on flash back like a movie in my memories

My childhood until now

Am I going to die soon?

:(

Very emo recently

And I falled sick already...

Stomach ill and flu...

Sigh..

May be get curse by someone?

hahas..

Tomorrow you going back to JB..

Careful ba..

I will going to miss you for sure..

Ha..

It's time for study again..

致：xxx

你应该知道我在说谁；

你应该知道我在说你；

我们有你的稚气；

也没有你的势力；

没有你强悍的想象力。

这里是我的部落格，我有发言的权利。

然而，很少人会浏览我的部落格。

我在这里对你发言，不会给你很大的杀伤力。

也不会有很多人知道你的存在。

我也不会想你那样中伤比人，在大众的面子书大大咧咧地羞辱某人；

损害个人名誉。

‘幼稚’

这是给你的。

适合你，

你会做的，就只是在背后中伤别人。

文字，是很有杀伤力的东西。

我没有你的泼辣，不会大吵大闹，也没有你的野蛮，不会动刀动枪。

伤害一个人，中伤一个人，给别人取绰号，对人家人生攻击。

我告诉你，法律里面有条理，是说明中伤别人，造成个人心灵上的创伤，我是可以告你的。

但是我也没有这种闲聊时间去做这些，因为，就如你所说的，不值得。

你，根本就不值得我去伤心。难过，浪费时间与金钱。

你对我所做的一切，我铭记在心。

他是不是我的男朋友又怎样？

至少我真的爱他，我不想再在意结果，你对我人生攻击，我真的很反感。

我没有盘弄是非，也没有添盐加醋。从来不曾说你的半句坏话。

我自问把你当好姐妹看待，但是你呢？

对你的信任，你把我给耍得团团转~

说我恐怖也罢，因为我不想再理你的东西了。

也心淡了好久，谢了。

自己也看不好自己，我不想说什么。

因为不想再多事。

很多事情，起因是什么，我看透了。

只是猜不透，为什么你可以扭曲事实，装无辜，把错的责任推给别人。

我深信，终有一天，你会有报应的。

网上的人固然恐怖，然而，惊动人心，最恐怖的，是你。

有什么事，冲着我来就好。

恳求你不要再中伤我的‘男人’。

你爱说我就说。

对别人人生攻击，对你没有好处。

根据你的幻想力，我就是那个坏人。

清者自清，真正认识我的人知道我的个性是怎样。

也清楚我的人格。

下一步，看着办吧……

还有……你，不再是我的‘朋友’。

有什么，要怎样羞辱我，就对着我来说。

不要动不相干的人士。

你再说我‘男人’什么的，虽然我不会怎样啦，因为想怎样也不能怎样。

但是，你自己说了，人不犯你你不犯人。

口舌之战，由我来应付。

但是也要等我有这个闲情日子去应付你才行。

我会把你从面子书删掉。

我也有一阵子不会上网。

要疯，你疯个够吧。

April 2011

It's April already Next month was my month HJ^2, remember your promise to me My dream is point on you now Zoo or Aquarium on 29th of May My last blog did talk about how worst is my March 2011 is And Japan get earthquake and tsunami My dream country is spoiled Let's pray for Japan Hope in this new month--April, my life will getting better Mun, try your best to getting used to what you face I have already plan on what to do in this month :D First week- Exam week Second week- Working in weekend and playing in weekdays Third week- Grandpa Birthday, Might going to work as well Forth week- Might going to JB and back to KL with him? may be la.. Hope everything goes smooth