What am I actually for you?

I din't forget you
Everyday I will still want to chat with you
Hope can become closer with you
What's actually in your mind?
If I din't find you...will you come to me?
I have an answer...You said scare you will disturb me..
Bee Bee ah~
I still don't want to give up on you actually
I know how you treat me is not worth for me to wait anymore
And want you come back to me is very very very hard
But I will still wait for the miracel


Everytime when I talk to him..>,<''
My heart beating fast and even can't breath
Phew~~
I was so happy when he talk to me...
But heart was pain too


Few days din't blog again
I have something funny to tell
T^T
Monday that time I fall over in college
>,<''
Then whole block of people came out from class and ask me what happened???
=.=
I suddenly become famous in college already
=o=

haha~~




Yesterday I go for movie with Yi~^^
we watch the Beauty on Duty and How to Train your Dragon
Damn nice man~~
xDDD

And I have a new target and mission for myself..
I want go HK when I become famous:)
hehe~~
Because of him>>>William Chan
Damn cut and handsome la~:)





This's him :)


And in the night...
something happened again
F***
T^T
made me cry like hell...
I really scare

Last year after someone abandon me
Just like what happened to me this year
There's a terrible guy keep on call and sms non-stop to me
T^T
LOAN SHARK
==
Last year he get my phone number from my friend
and keep on disturb me...
T^T

Everytime when I become single will become busy like hell again izit??
T^T

Anyway~
I will try my best to handle these case
Just like last time when I face them
But I really need someone beside me..
:(




few more days for my final exam...
Aza Aza MUN MUN!!!
and soon....6 more days...for another month for us..
Can I? haha..

Good luck and all the best for ''YOU'' :)

It's time to recover

Tears
Not only 1 liter I lost in these few days
Hurt---> My heart
Pain--> My body??=o=lll
LOL~
I keep make my self get hurt while my tears wanna fall

This morning when I woke
I felt the pain from my hand and mouth
T^T
Really pain

Last night my bro called me again


It's my own decisions

I looking forwards for my online relations partner Prince Knight came for M'sia
:)
Already April
He said he will come to M'sia on this month..:)

Let's see what will happened:)

Yup
I miss you again
I do

:)

But I'm nothing to you again

It's time to recover

9 more days...

All I ever Wanted

Basshunter - All I Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling

I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see?

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see
That all I ever wanted
Was you and me

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see
That all I ever wanted
Was you and me

I'm so alone
Here on my own
And I'm waiting for you to come
I want to be a part of you
Think of all the things we could do

And every day
You're in my head
I want to have you in my bed
You are the one
You're in my eyes
All I ever wanted in my life

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see
That all I ever wanted
Was you and me

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see
That all I ever wanted
Was you and me

Are you ready?

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see
That all I ever wanted
Was you and me

All I ever wanted

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It's a very nice song~:)

I will try to post up to my blog next time la~
hehe~^^

Well~
It's the 3rd week~

It's worth or not worth is depends on how much he mean to me
and How much I love him

Many people still asked me about him
Almost everyday
Yea..

I not really like to answer these questions
Once I answer that...
I admit it?
NO

I believe to myself
and
him..


I'm selfish~~
lalala~

Yes I really do..:)

All I ever wanted..
I wont give up

:D


It's very very hard to forget someone that you really love
Talk
Is so much easy than do

But

What if you are the people who face the fact?
Did you ever think about that?

Time can prove everything
Yes..
I agree with that

For ''YOU''
I will let you know the things I did is not fake and is from my real

For ''ME''
I will try to look clear on you
If that's the time for me to woke
I will do so

And for my friend

please read clearly what I said
I Know It's hard
But
This's our life


Try to get what you want
Until you really can't take it anymore
You will grown:)

Time won't flash back

Thanks to Mr. Richie

These few days I still can't control myself to keep thinking about him
Everytime I text him He also seldom reply me
The reason he gave
Is he din't mention the phone ringing
I was like..
WTF
=o=

Phew~
I Dunno why I cry again
He keep on ignore me only

I keep waiting and waiting
I said will wait him
Yes
I do..:)
Mr.Hue
I will wait you
no matter how long does this period go on
But
I wil still waiting

Yesterday
I saw Richie on TV
He sing a song called ''soft heart''
I did woke up a little bit
But
I still won't give up




This is him la~:D
Handsome right??

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



May be I not good enough
But I will become better than before
:D
It's the promise for myself
No matter on study
Out looking
Singing Skill
Everything

I will become better because of you

People will become better after they get hurt
Because
It's the time and chance for them to grown

I plan to b a DJ on 988 radio station after I get my Diploma
And
Ofcourse
I want to be on scene
I will find a chance for myself to continue my dream on TV station
:)

Thanks to my Dad
Because he intro the boss of the radio staion to me
So I have a chance to get this job
Thanks again:)
I LOVE U DAD
^^

These few days I keep on cook la~
hehe~
And I did go for gym everyday also~
xD

Anyway~
Thanks to Mr.Richie
:)
I LOVE YOU
xD
But too bad...
you get married dy
T^T

Happy 2010

Happy 2010~

=D

In this new year~

I hope I can start a new life

=D

=================================

Review to my past year

2009

There's lots of things happened and many changes in my life

xD

Good and bad things

I become a college student in year 2009

I get many new friends in this year

Those from Facebook and also college as well

xD

Passed my 1st love..

heart broken~

Family...

Friends...

Relations...

many many many...

xD

Thanks to all of my friends

I happy to know you all~

Filled my life with hopes~xD

Thanks to My Family~

Because they remember my birthday on this year!

During the past few years..

They don't even remember my birthday!

I cried on my birthday every year..

But!

I smile on my 18th Birthday~

in year 2009~

Thanks to my college gangs~xD

E1

My new Family~xD

I have many owesome Friends here~

They are nice and 38~xD

hahas~

Happy to know them in my life~

They walk into my life in year 2009~

and my DBC gangs as well...

Thanks...

Thanks to my 5G gangs~

=D

My secondary school classmate~

I love u all~xD

Althought we are in different university or college

BUT

our friendship still on

gathering and gossip~

=D

Thanks

Thanks to my Facebook Friends~

xD

I creat my FB on 21 of April 2009

I meet my BFF here~

Brenzy and Chen Jun...

They nice and friendly la

Gladz to become urs BFF

Thanks~

And My FFS in FB

xD

Thanks to my owner Ganlan~xD

He's kind and nice to me..Thanks...

Without u...My Life is black la~xD

Always cheer me up~xD

Thanks~xD

And My Brother in FB~

Hikki-chan

He care me a lots...

Thanks Bro..Love u~xD

My Daddy Ren

=D

Care me a lots la~xD

Thanks~xD

(Special Thanks to these people la)

=P

If ur name dosen't in my blog...Dosen't means u are not important to me la~xD

Just I Don't have the time Thanks u all 1 by 1 la~xD~

>///<

Thanks to my Love 1~

Michael Ison~

=D

I know him for half years already la~

He's nice and kind~

I love u~

==============================

What Did I change in year 2009 la?

I learned many new things la~

Improved my singing skills

Communicate skills

=D

I went to Ai FM in year 2009

yay~xD

Sounds like only positive changing?

NO!!!

I become fatter and fatter...

thats a serious sad case...

T^T

In the end of 2009~

I went to my classmate house for countdown~xD

My 1st time la~xD

woohoo~

Our E1 gangs having a BBQ party at Khing Mun house~xD

hahas~

We sleep,eat,play together la~xD

hahas~

I will upload our video to FB later~=P

Really crazy la~xD

Happy

I sleep between Rachel and Habby

=o=

hahas~

Many Funny staff happened la~xD

Really Love our E1 group~

>,<

On the next morning we going to eat bah kut teh as our breakfast la~xD

Then we going to Jusco for Shopping~

woohoo~

After that only we going back la~

When I reach home..

9pm already

=o=

I din't on Facebook for 1 day la~

Guess what happened?

4 pages comments on FFS

and 2 pages on Facebook wall

=o=

Then hor~

233 friend requests..

=o=lll

siao liao~

hahas~~

In This new year~

I hope all my wishes will come true..

>///<

=D

~Happy New Year~

My assignment~

This Story is my assignment~xD

Hope my friend can read this la~xD~

any comments??xD

原创微型小说

惊·囍

一梳梳到尾，

二梳梳到白发齐眉，

三梳梳到儿孙满地，

四梳梳到四条银笋尽亦齐。

上头仪式，象征着新人正式步入成人阶段，要组织新家庭，肩负起开枝散叶的使命。

红红的蜡烛，雪白的婚纱···

梦境都变成了真正。

粗糙的双手，把我疼养得这么大了···

幸福的红毯就交给我自己走。

欢薹的眼神，参着寂寞的背影。

不舍，都藏到了话底下。

过了今天，我就是别人的妻子了。藏着复杂心情的我，坐在床头，看着自己房间里头贴满了红红的囍字，听着父母唠唠叨叨的交代着为人媳妇该做及不该做的种种一切，我的心里暖暖的。父母养育我多年，我握住他们的双手，感觉到他们真的老了，粗糙的双手尽是被岁月洗礼所留下的痕迹。从牙牙学语到现在已要为人妻的我，在父母眼中总是一个长不大的孩子。在爸爸的催促之下，妈妈帮我盖好被，亲了亲我的额头，熄了灯，关了门。

一滴暖暖的泪珠在我脸颊上划过，是我困了吗？

想起以前，我总不会珍惜及孝顺父母，小公主的脾气总是改不来，因为我是家中的独生女，总是要风得风，要雨得雨。

彷如刚闭上眼睛不久，妈妈就把我摇醒了。我向窗外望去，天色朦胧，但是我得准备梳洗了。因为今天的我会很忙，很忙，很忙。我要嫁人了！

冲过了冷冰冰的花澡后，我的身上散发出了清香迷人的淡淡花香，彷如一个花仙子降落了人间。我静静地坐在房间里头，望着雪白的婚纱，兴奋的感觉涌上了我的心头。化妆师来到后，不慌不忙地开始为我化上了新娘妆。我合上双眼，静候化妆师完成我的妆，听见房门外哄哄闹闹的吵杂声，得知了亲朋戚友们都到了。而爸爸妈妈就在外头忙着准备等下新人拜别父母亲及向长辈们敬茶的仪式用具。

当上完妆后，我看见了镜子中的我，简直跟平日的我有着天壤之别。当我换上了雪白的婚纱，别上了头纱后，简直有如天仙下凡一样。当父母进到房间里头时，望着我···心中的感慨都在心里，我从他们的眼神感觉到了，但却用不了言语来表达。

一阵阵震耳欲聋的车笛声传来了，我的心跳加速···这车笛声响得很，在百里外也可以听得见吧？听闻车笛声是为了让生肖相冲的人回避，以免相冲而坏了吉日。当车笛声停了以后，取而代之的喧闹声是从房外传来的。从大家嘻嘻哈哈的笑声，我得知了大家在闹新郎，让他闯过种种的难关才能到房间里迎娶新娘子；这让他知道要娶新娘子是不容易的。经过了一段时间，房门打开了，是妈妈。爸爸跟在她身后，而新郎就在后头，红着脸地，也流着汗。想必他一定是在刚才被我的姐妹团们耍得团团转。

新郎亲了亲我，然后把我领出了客厅，为我家祖先上香。充当媒人的嫂嫂在一旁给我们这一对新人给指示。我们这对新人献给历代祖先敬茶，然后再向父母敬茶。我们跟着嫂嫂的指示，向父母三鞠躬，表示着恩重如山，亲情深似海。然后礼成后，亲朋戚友们坐在客厅里，大家说说笑笑的，等着吉时的到来再向男家出发去。

我们这对新人坐在房间里，爸妈走了进来。爸爸向新郎示意，叫他到房外去跟他聊聊。妈妈在新郎出去后关上了房门，一屁股做到了床上，再加以交代身为人妻所要注意的琐碎事项。“平日闲着没事做，要勤快些，帮忙做做家事，看头看尾的···”这句话我从昨晚到今天听了千万遍了。想必妈妈还在担心我在婆家那里会做错什么事，也害怕担心我不会再回家探望爸妈。不知觉地，我搂住了妈妈了。我笑了笑，这可爱的妈妈真是的，人家又不是嫁出了这个门口后就回不来了。我心里着，到我嫁人以后，我一定会时常回家来看看爸妈，好让他们知道我没有嫁错郎，要让他们知道他们的宝贝女儿我，很幸福、很快乐，决不让他们担心。

爸爸把房门打开了，告知我吉时到了，是时候到婆家去进行新郎入娶新娘的仪式。爸爸妈妈在众人的见证之下，站在我身后的左右边帮我把头纱盖上，准备出门。头纱是为了让新娘子在嫁人途中，不受妖魔鬼怪骚扰，好让在新娘子去婆家途中平平安安，顺顺利利，直到到了婆家后，才能让新郎把头纱揭开。在上礼车前，妈妈交给我一把扇子，在礼车走时把扇子抛出车外，以示放下性子，不将坏性子带到婆家去。

引擎响起了，我开了车窗，随着风，我把扇子抛了出去。妈妈准备了一盆水往外泼，象征着嫁出去的女儿就像泼出去的水一样。突然，“碰”的一声巨响，我眼前的画面颠倒了三百六十度，看着自己身边满是鲜血的新郎，自己身上雪白的婚纱也被自己身上的血染红了···没错，车祸发生了···身体一阵麻痹，什么也感觉不了···朦朦胧胧中我到妈妈像疯了一样从不远处跑来，爸爸跟随在后。隔着车窗，我看着妈妈泪流满脸，拼命地大喊救命，叫我撑下去。眼前一暗···妈妈的声音也渐渐听不见了···我死了吗？心中想着要报答父母，才刚下了这个决心，但是什么也还没做···我不要···我不要···我不可以死···

眼泪从我眼中划过了脸颊，这时我又听见妈妈的声音了！经过一阵阵的摇晃，我的眼睛睁开了。向四周望去，红红的囍字，熟悉的环境···咦？我还在自己的房间，而妈妈就坐在我旁边，笑着说：“还不起床？要嫁人了还赖床？”。